Still pressing on....

I haven't posted in a while and I wanted to give you all an update!

This has been an incredible journey so far.  I find myself not wanting the old "normal" anymore. I don't want to forget what I have learned or forget what it felt like to be so close to my Savior that I felt such an ultimate sense of peace. A few people I see ask me how I am doing. I can tell in their faces that they want me to say "I'm great! I'm all better". They want me to hurry up and get back to normal.  Honestly, I don't want to. Because "normal" is different now.  The old "normal" is filled with angst, selfishness, and joylessness.  I have learned so many things throughout this time and I am trying to cling to the new.  I don't want to fall back into old habits.  It is sometimes hard stay in the new place because our sin nature can cause us to forget to listen to God's voice and walk in His spirit. I want to be aware at all times what God delivered me from and that I need to listen to what He wants me to do next. I need to remember the places of darkness and then turn them around to light. I hope someday I can use my journey to help others.    Right now it is still very raw and it is not past us yet but I feel myself moving towards that place of having a complete zest for life. A place of complete thankfulness that God took us here and He has been with us every step of the way.  The passions I had before have changed. I am trying to figure out what they are now and what God wants me to do with my life!
I know this will be a daily surrendering of myself. I will need to daily commit myself to Christ and how He wants me to live. To always look and listen as I go throughout my day.
I am anxiously waiting for the day when God will show me what the purpose of this journey was.

I read this passage in Isaiah that really summed up more effectively what I am trying to convey!

"Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen; to loose the chains of injustice and untie the cords of the yoke, to set the oppressed free and break every yoke?
Is it not to share your food with the hungry and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter---when you see the naked, to clothe him, and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood?
Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the Lord will be your rear guard.
Then you will call, and the Lord will answer; you will cry for help, and he will say; Here am I. If you do away with the yoke of oppression, with the pointing finger and malicious talk, and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday.
The Lord will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail."
Isaiah 58:6-11