Each step of Faith

Thursday is fast approaching and honestly I'm still feeling kind of numb. I still feel like this is happening to someone else and I'm on the outside looking in. I asked Shawn if we could just drive by the hospital on Thursday and go on vacation instead! But no... we have to face this..it is inevitable...it has to be done. As I am surrounding myself with God's word and encouragement from others I am reminded of the truth of what God has said to me. He is there, He is my provider, He is my healer, He is my sanctuary. I definitely do not always "feel" the emotion of it, but I know it to be true. I keep reading. I keep believing that He is holding me and taking away my fear.
I am thankful the outcome is optimistic but I still have to travel the journey. I still have to walk each step and wait. I still will see God's hand on every step and in every detail. That is what I am holding on to as I anticipate what is going to happen. He is with me abundantly!
I am also thankful that the results from the Mayo clinic were negative! It is the not the cancer that is in the lymph nodes!

A few prayer requests:
For me that I will continue to hold to God's word and His truth, not my own. That the surgery would go well and the doctor would know exactly what to do. That I would be able to rest in God's healing hands. And that I would not be too overwhelmed with missing the kids.

For Shawn: That he would be able to focus at work and not be overwhelmed with all the things that have to be done. That he would have a peace overwhelm him that wherever he is during a particular day is exactly where God wants him.

For the Kids: That they would not be anxious or scared about what is going on, and that they would feel God's love surround them.

Thanks so much for your prayers and love. We will try to update here as soon as we know anything else.