I have realized that I don't rant and rave much on my blog! It is mostly a scrapbook of the fun things we do as a family. But please allow me to rant and rave!
I am having a hard time with establishing a consistent rest time with the girls. Eliza still needs to sleep and Adrianna doesn't. Most days Adrianna wants to watch a movie but I usually try and mix that up with reading time, craft time, or quiet play time.
I have wondered if I should just make it the same. Lately, Eliza has been wanting to watch a movie during rest time. I tell her that she needs to sleep first and then she can watch one with Adrianna when she gets up. Well, the anticipation of watching a movie is too much for her and she ends up not sleeping. She stays in her room about 3o minutes and then she comes out wanting to watch something.
Well, today I lost it....completely lost it...
Silly me for thinking that my almost 6 year old could do something quietly while I practiced the piano for rehearsal tonight. Meanwhile Caleb's long nap was from 10-1:30 today so he was up.
I put Adrianna on our couch downstairs for some reading time and then when I brought Caleb down, she wanted to play with him. In theory, my mind was thinking that she could play with him while I practiced. Well...he got bored with that idea and decided it was more fun to open up all the cupboards in our office, try and eat chalk, and try and play the piano himself. Adrianna would not be quiet for even a minute. Then Eliza comes down....
Meanwhile I had also been printing out some Princess coloring pages for the girls to color. I made these cute little books only to have Eliza rip out the pages and destroy the book. Why do I do these things I ask? Then Adrianna came over to the piano to tell me something AGAIN and she ripped out the cord from my earphones. Thus disrupting the song I was practicing that I was half way through. The song was already 4 pages into it!
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I was so frustrated at that point that I lost it...
Please tell me some of you other moms have lost it at some point! I yelled....
Oh and before this Adrianna said I was the best mom ever when I gave her the Barbie coloring pages. After I yelled, She started crying, ran over to the couch and said "Now You are NOT the best mom ever!". Okay, so I guess I'm only the best when she gets something she wants!
Anyway, I do admit this was not a good way to handle things. But do you ever just snap and have not control over it until after the act is done?
I am trying to evaluate how I could do things differently. How can I make rest time more restful?
I do admit, I need quiet time to function. I guess it is just one of the ways God made me. I need to rest my brain. Too much talking causes me to go into sensory overload and I just can't handle any more until I have some quiet. I have realized that the rest time I used to have of about 2 1/2 hours has been widdled down to about an hour. I'm okay with that as long as I get it!
Sometimes I wish I didn't need it!
So, the little urchins are in their beds. I threatened them with spanks and no movies ever again if they got down from their beds! Well, maybe not the no movies thing!
So, Adrianna is barking like a dog and Eliza is singing at the top of her lungs.
Any suggestions would be most appreciated!
I guess I'm just going to have to put the smack down more during that time!:)
And now rehearsal is cancelled for tonight and I didn't need to be so focused on practicing!!
So much for my out..:)
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
2 comments:
Oh, wow...I can sure relate, Becky, girl! Hang in there. It's all going to be okay. :) Get a goodnight's sleep. Tomorrow's a brand new day!!!
And ....It's okay to need time for yourself. When my kids were your kids' ages, Tim knew that every Thursday night was my night to get out of the house - and if I didn't go somewhere he'd scoot me out. He knew I needed alone time - to be with friends, shop, or whatever. I am thankful he did that. That might be my suggestion for you....can Shawn provide that for you once a week? maybe?
Don't you DARE get rid of your blog! I love it! =)
I SooooooOOO remember having to transition my rest time mentality. As you know Seth gave up naps for his 2nd birthday so I had a transition time- most of it was mental for me. My own expectations of what I wanted for myself instead of thinking of what was best for me to be doing with my kids. I expected Seth (and still sometimes still expect) him to be okay with playing by himself or with Owen when he really just wants me to be available. I've tried to use the one on one time I have with him lately to spend some of it WITH him and not trying to shove him off so I can do something for myself. Not always successful but it has at least helped me to adjust to my own expectations of what the afternoon will be like in my house on any given day.
And oh YES have i blown it before too. My latest was just the other day- however- it turned into a sweet conversation with Jaedon that went something like this.
(precursor he and Seth had watched Angel Wars earlier which is about Angels fighting off the demonic forces in cartoon form- pretty well done too and good for jumpstarting spiritual conversations...) "Jaedon, I am very sorry for yelling at you. Will you please forgive me?"
"Mom, I think the demon side won when you yelled."
*trying not to laugh*
"You are so right. I gave into the lie that yelling at you would be better than being paitent."
"I forgive you." (still sad)
later on...
"You know, Jaedon, even though the demon side won a small battle when I decided to yell...The angels actually won the whole war for our relationship when you forgave me. That is just what Jesus would do!"
This provoked huge eyes and a bigger smile. And I was thankful to God that I could use my stumbling, bumbling ways to point him to Him.
Maybe Paula is onto something too- maybe you could delay your own "out" time to a time where Shawn could play interference for you.
I have other ideas but I've written too much already ;-)
Post a Comment